What must be done to save this?

ATTENTION: THIS IS A REALLY EMO POST!!! 

*It will be very emo*

I really wanna do something to save things between us...But I don't know what to do.
I really wanna go close to you... But I don't know how.
I really wanna spend some time with you... But I don't dare to do so.
I really wanna talk to you...But I don't know what to talk to you.
I really wanna have secrets between you and me again... But I don't think it will be just between you and me.
I really wanna be your best buddy again... But I don't think that's what you really want.
I really wanna be your best friend again... But I don't think you need me as your best friend anymore.

I used to believe that even best friends are far away from each other, as long as they both really want this friendship to go on, they will be best friend forever. Till now, I still believe that. I don't know what to do now, I really don't know. I wanted to tell you what I feel but I don't want third party to know about it. But somehow, there will be a someone who knows all about us. So I'm not going to do so. But I really want us to be close again. Last time, walking pass you used to be my best time in school cos we will be laughing, joking and playing. Now, walking pass you is a awkward situation to me. I am always thinking "Do I wanna go over and say something? What to say? Will I make things worse? Are you thinking what I'm thinking?" I really want us to be like last time even though I know it wouldn't be. You're always surrounded by friends and you look really happy. I guess I'm not needed. I am actually happy for you but I just don't feel right. Thinking back what had happened between us, I regretted I gave up this friendship. If I didn't or maybe just stand for a little bit longer, I guess, we're still friends now, really close one. But now, I'm like those amnesia patient, looking at you, I don't know who you are but I felt something between us and I wanna save that "thing" between us. I really hope you will see this and I also know you will never read this. Maybe this is also a good thing...Or not. Maybe time can help us to solve this "thing" between us. Maybe one day, we will be BFF again... I hope so.